for him...

dear...

you might further your study in Australia for another 2 years to get your master,
and there is a high possibility that i'll be staying back in Malaysia to work.

honestly, when i know about it, i feel like, oh god, we've to be seperated again for another 2 years =(

but at the same time, i really hope that you can go.
I know that you really want to study abroad, to feel the study environment here, and get the experience here.
this is what you hope to!! and you must go for it ok???!!!
Must!!!
hahaha...ok i start to force you again.
but listen dear...those are what i really wanted to tell you...
*and i know you have a very strong feeling about it rite? coz last time when you encouraged me to study in Adelaide, i know you think exactly what i've told you jz now.

you're taking 5 subjects this semester,
it is not easy, as most of the subjects are 3rd year subjects.

you've been very hardworking, you know, I know and god knows...
so dear, if u believe you've tried your best!
then you can receive your result proudly...no matter what grade you've got.
Because you've did your best!!!

i'm always here to support you!!

try your best! get good result! and then proceed your dream of study abroad ok??

dont "consider" not to be influenced by the factor that we've talked about today...
you "must" not be influenced by the factor.


work hard!
miss you!
*pls smile after you've read this blog =)

holiday

after we're back from Melbourne...we have nothing much to do in this short yet long holiday.
most of the time we (me) will just stay in the room, sit quietly facing my daughter (laptop) and try to find something to spend my time.

If any lecturer could read my blog here, will definitely leave a comment and say "pls start your assignment since you're so free and have plenty of time!"

hahaha...i've tried to but...understandable la pls....holiday wei...we rather to be bored til die also wont feel like starting anything that is related to "study" (this is human).

So i've been watching drama series which recommended by Pooi and Mien...
Besides, i've explore myself to a 'new place', Facebook!
strongly recommended by Loris when we're visiting her in Melbourne.
so i fully use this free time to hang around in Facebook, so far what i've learn is only the photo upload section which is quite similar to Friendster. *however, i found it Facebook is much more convenient!

and another activity i'll do when i'm free or mind is blank...which is Editing Photos!

following are my masterpieces!
although some are just edited through simply clicked on some effect application...but...still need my imagination to come out with the combination though...hehehee...


jz hv a look and feel free to leave any comment...good or bad are all acceptable =)

Another stage of life

new invention of hot chocolate & marshmallow

variety of apple

*this pic was stolen from Pooi's house =)

invisible water

he sounds tired...

yesterday my dad called me in the evening,


as usual,
he asked me whether i had my dinner yet,
whether i have drink a lot of water,
whether i'm happy studying here,

after i've answered him accordingly,

as usual,
he reminded me to eat whatever i like to,
reminded me to go everywhere as i like when i'm free, don't just study study and study,
he reminded me must be happy all the time,
drink as much water as i can,
especially drink a lot of water early in the morning,
*its his 'secret recipe' of keeping himself healthy.
Perhaps, i dun call it 'secret recipe' because he asked me to tell my friend to do so..
hahaha...he is just so cute.
and ya! all my friend or blog readers,
every morning, or once u first wake up in a day,
try to drink as much water as u can, (drink in one breath),
it is very good for excretion.

ok back to the point,
our conversations are more or less the same since many many years ago.
it sounds like very mechanized Q&A section between me and my dad.
hahaha...
but i truly know that there are a lot more he wanted to tell me.
and this is absolutely not a mechanized type of questions,
its all truly from his heart,
and he knows that he needs to concern and remind me from time to time.


every time he called me,
i would be very happy to hear his voice which is full of happiness and it is very cheering!!

but at times, he is trying to talk cheering but i can hear that he is tired.

whenever i ask him, 'dad, are u very busy these few days? are u tired?'
For sure he will say,
'no, not at all, as long as you all happy my tiredness will go away! so just promise me that you are healthy and happy ok?'


oh dad, i feel so sour when i can hear that you're tired but trying to act normal.

Promise me to take care of yourself ok?
and i promise you to quickly complete my study, and i'll do as you said, study as much as i can and do something that i like in the future,

dad, the thing that i would like to do in the future is to help you up with your business.
it was build up by you yourself with a pair of bare hand,
now brother is helping you and we know he is really helpful where he has taken over half of your burden,
I promise to you,
once i've graduated and after i've get ready into the company,
all of your burden will pass to me and brother ok?
and you and mummy can then travel around, enjoy your life to the fullest!

i'll give you two whatever you need when i'm able to do so.

what i want is just to see you two happy and healthy.

love both my dad and mum!!

still got half a year to graduation~
*hopefully =) Pray hard to god, no failure in subject pleaseeeee...



end.

f r e e d o m

with regards to my blog's name...
~FREEDOM~

since the day of 13rd Feb 2008,
the moment when we step into the flight which heading to Adelaide...
i got lots of FREEDOM!!!

FREEDOM of staying up til late night...
(usually mum or dad will want me to sleep earlier =] )



FREEDOM to go anywhere as we like...
(usually back in malaysia, wherever i go e.g. clubbing, i must get permission from my mummy...)



FREEDOM to do anything i like...





People are looking forward to have lots of Freedom as what i'm having at the moment...


However,
too much of freedom will make me feel lonely though...






As i believe,
every person will be homesick once they've leave their family for any reason,
study or work...



Following the norm,
homesick will be stronger at the beginning of period,
and it'll decrease dramatically as time goes by...
it is because as time goes by, we're getting used to the new environment.



As i always think that i'm a weird person,
i don't really follow the norm behaviour...



I still remember,
i didn't cry for leaving malaysia when we're ready to say goodbye to our family, friends, and boyfriend...



Until we reach Adelaide, our new 'home'...
i'm still feeling ok...
while my jimuiz are all feel so down of homesick...
at that moment, i'm wondering...
why cant i just cry like how they do?
Of course my girls are not purposely make themselves to cry,
its just the feeling of homesick is too strong that made their tears to fall down...



At first, i was so excited to the new environment here.
new room, study table, new bed,
new campus, new lecturer, new tutor,
new people...
i've try my best to decorate my room as it feels more like a house...


Hence,
i was quite ok at the beginning of the moment we reach Adelaide...
at the moment,
i feel like i'm a bad daughter of my family...
feel like i've forget about them
and enjoy so much in Adelaide...



But things slowly changed...
i started to miss them so much,
i started to be quite emo at times...
i started to feel so strong of flying back to malaysia...
i started to count the day left of goin back to malaysia...
tears started to fall so easily whenever i think of them...




that's why i say i'm a weird person...
other people are starting to get rid of homesick but i'm starting to be homesick...





whatever it is, i really miss my family, my dear, my friends in malaysia...

Thank you,

Thank you, (04-04-08)

Blur sk get surprise from her beloved jimuiz tonight…

Krystal and my birthday are very close to each other,

Krystal is on the 6^th while I’m on the 8^th of April…

Initially, we’re planning to give surprise to Krystal for her birthday…

and I told my girl (mien and pooi) that don buy anything for me, jz treat me one meal of Pan Cake I’m happy enough!!

Seriously I’m thinking that way because they’ve bought me perfume last year and we’re now in Aus, everything is so expensive.

We’ve planned so well…Pooi and Mien has been very san fu for planning the surprise…haha…

And it was success!! Krystal was unexpected about it…

(Krystal was so touch by it)

After we’ve surprised Krystal successfully,

I went back to my room…

I was really shocked when I saw they’ve put the present on my table…

It really surprised me…seriously…

I’m so so happy with it…really unexpected…

Tears are flowing in heart…

To be honest, initially I was thinking that the happiest present is to be

with them…

closely…

There are times, I really feel sorry to them and hate myself so much…

Most of the time, I’ll jz stay in the room, or seldom chit-chat with them,

It is because sometimes I’ll feel scare to voice out,

I scare will spoil their conversation…

I jz have that stupid feeling…

Sometimes I was like an insane person, talking to myself in the room...

keep asking why am I so weird?

Why cant I jz talk to them like how they talk to each other so happily and naturally…

Two day after (6-4-08) Krystal’s actually birthday,

Krystal and me have decided to treat them a meal…

And so Krystal has booked for the RiverSide buffet in Hyatt Hotel at 6pm.

We had a lot of fun that night, we eat, chat so nicely…

my girls told me that they know me since secondary school so they know very well that I’m behaving such a way that I don’t really talk much…

I’m so happy at the moment…because I feel so happy that my girls are so understanding and they din blame on me for not participate much with them sometimes…

I really appreciate those moment, really appreciated so much!!

After dinner, we have to face those hard work again…OB assignment!!!

It is very suffering whenever we deal with assignments…

but we’ve no choice but to do it…

And my girls has a special slogan for it…”die die get it done!!”

Hahaha…

Although the whole environment is so stressful…but at least…once in awhile, we can jz walk to other room and chit-chat for awhile…

There are times, we cook in the mid-night…hahaha…we cook rise or fry mee-hun in the middle of the night…

These moment are very precious…and memorable.

Girls…I feel so happy to have u all as my jimuiz…

And I think this is the best time for me to apologize to three of you…

truly from my heart…so sorry…

Sorry that sometimes I jz din realize if I’ve did something that might make u girls feel uneasy…

Sorry that sometimes I jz din join u girls much even we’re living so close to each other…

Sorry that I kept quiet when u girls are discussing something…maybe at that moment you girls need my response or opinion…

Sorry that… sorry for every mistake that I’ve made…I promise to u girls, if I’ve made it, I didn’t mean it…I really made it accidentally…

I know saying this will make u girls feel awkward too…but…please forgive me girl…

I need u all so much!!

Thanks for everything!!!